Halloween was just yesterday. People pretend to be who they aren’t. It’s a quite interesting holiday really. People talk about their fears as they prance about in the middle of the night or watch scary movies.
For a person with extreme anxiety, fears are something to be faced every single day.
“But you don’t seem like that type, you’re always going for it. It seems like you’re fearless. Are you sure you aren’t saying that for attention?”
My chest pumps and my head feels like my brain is trying to burst out of my skull. I have too many fears to count but I
try to stay strong. The fear of people not liking me, the fear of being severely judged at the beach, the fear of someone taking advantage of the fact that I enjoy to go explore by myself, the fear of the unknown, and the fear of fear itself paralyzing my every action and thought is something familiar to me.
It may seem like I’m a wreck with all of these underlying fears and I should just “stay strong”. Yes, I do stay strong. On the outside, I seem like that confident girl who has everything under control. I have spoken to crowds of over 500 people just fine. Underneath my facade however, I’m absolutely terrified but relieved once it’s over.
I make myself talk to large crowds even though I’m an outgoing introvert talking to so many different people, because I face my fears. It’s good to have fears because they remind us that we’re imperfect human beings and that’s perfectly fine. It’s fine to admit your fears.
I said above that for a person with extreme anxiety, fears are something to be faced every single day. It’s absolutely true. I’ll give you a little insight here.
I have anxiety or panic attacks. It’s scary because you can’t breathe. You try to scream and nothing comes out. Me having panic or anxiety attacks is why I’m so particular about the subject of fears. Most of the time, my attacks are fueled my fear. I stop them because I fight to face my fears because I’m stronger than my fears. You are stronger than your fears.
It’s okay to be scared. It’s a natural part of life. The problem is that we can’t let fears get to us to the point where we can’t handle life. Yes, I get extremely scared and it makes me worry for hours. I can’t let fear consume me however, to give up and never face the fear itself. When I say I truly face my fears everyday, I mean it. This is my message, a young girl who suffers from anxiety or panic attacks every so often, but who still manage to force myself to face my fears and keep a confident expression because I don’t absolutely ever want fears to define who I am as a person. How you deal with fears is a vital part as to who you are as a person.